Posted: Friday 31jan2014
On Jan 27th I had a new goal to set, my primary goal was to completely stop drinking. However ML and I decided it would be best for me to get a full medical exam and feedback from the doctor to see if I was OK physically to stop cold turkey or if I needed to take vitamin/medication cocktail. Doctors appointment was set for Feb 11. 16 days later.
As I was saying, I had a new goal to set for Jan 27th. I decided that my new goal was to stop drinking after 12pm, maximum of 4 drinks.
On Monday Jan 27th, around 7ish in the morning I had my first beer, then my second.. by 9ish I was at 4. I left my house, on my way to work I grabbed another can of beer. Left work around 11, to go to the liquor store to purchase a 200ml bottle of Chemineaud Brandy (40%). Drank about half the bottle and went back to work. Around lunch time, went for a walk and ended up at the liquor store again, purchase a 473ml can of Bacardi and Cola Pre-Mix [Oakheart & Cola] (7%) and a 355ml can of Smirnoff Ice (7%).
I drank the Smirnoff Ice around 1:30pm, later in the afternoon I drank the rum and coke. I eventually finished the brandy as well.
At 6:15pm I had my kickboxing class and right after that I felt great, so I went to get myself ONE last beer. Turned out to be a giant can of Coors Light 473ml.
I did not drink at home, cause that would be breaking the objective! [yes, major sarcasm here]
That evening I felt like shit, major failure. I had to play this song over and over to reassure myself Bik Naked – I love Myself Today
Eventually went to bed, and woke up around 2am feeling sick, I wonder why?
The next morning it was clear that was the end, and my new goal of drinking max 4 drinks before 12pm did not work. I needed to re-evaluate my goal.
So I decided to try not to drink to at least 12pm, if I feel like I am freaking out, then it would be acceptable to have a sip or two. However, I would try really hard to not drink before 12pm, and a maximum of 4 drinks a day.
So I started the day with food, vitamin B1 and B3, zinc and water with lemon juice. Got to work without a drink, and before I knew it I had made it to 12:30pm. At 12:30 I decided to go to the liquor store, the first store I went to did not have the product I was looking for, so I went back to the same one I went to on the 27th. I purchased 2 Smirnoff Ice cans. I drank half in the parking lot near work and threw out the rest , as it did not taste as good as I remembered it to be. That evening I had a meeting ML, I told her how my week went and how my day went. During this time I had the second Smirnoff Ice can in my bag, she asked if I can take it out and place it on the table as we continue to talk. I left that can with her and have not touched alcohol since.
Next meeting is Tuesday Feb 4th, 2014.
Here is a recap of what Monday 27th costed me, financially:
- 4 U beers: 7$
- 1 can of Coors Light: 3$
- 1 bottle of brandy: 7$
- 1 can of rum and coke + 1 can of Smirnoff: 7$
- 1 large can of Coors Light: 5$